Tuesday, March 29, 2016

New studio


I started honours at Monash about a month ago. I've been very nervous/excited over the last few months about returning to study art. To my great relief/surprise/joy the start of the year has been really smooth - I feel that I am in the right place. For the first time (maybe ever?) I am confident to talk in front of new people about my work and the work of others. Even though words/actions don't always come out right I feel more relaxed about taking the time to articulate an idea - I'm not living in my self-inflicted fear of being judged/dismissed and I strive to take time with what people are saying and understand. We are all from different backgrounds with different skills and knowledge but we are all in the same place right now. I generally feel open/calm/positive/excited about the present and the future. It's really nice to feel centred and focused in this new space. The other students in my year are friendly and nice; willing to talk and participate. And I trust in the quality of the lecturers, university facilities (except maybe the library undergoing severe renovations) and courses. I'm really grateful and happy to be where I am.

My studio is a nice private corner space with such features as a blackboard, a pipe that makes a soothing(?) zen-garden-trickling-water sound now and again, a window to nowhere, a door that doesn't open and a trapdoor (oh, and four walls!) My studio buddy helped me make shelves to store and display my drawings. It is nice having my more recent work and a few old pieces up around the perimeter of my space. I had a bit of a tidy up the other day, moving my desk into the middle of the space and arranging all my books, boards and materials out to the sides. I feel like I want everything in view but on the peripheral, just out of reach, so I can focus on the task at hand in the middle of the space. I'm trying hard to work steadily and not become stagnant through struggling with a repetitive task or an idea that might have reached its end. There are many things I want to read, watch, make and new skills I want to learn. I'm looking forward to seeing what will happen.